I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Song of Love and Creation or judgments of the ego based on what you ask for (agree with) in the mind. There is no other way. In the Class, your brain (content) is split between Lord and the ego; and you’re selecting all the time with a part as reason for effect.
Forms (all points with this world) are miscreations highlighting the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve managed to get up (miscreated this world) and may give it up anytime by fixing your head (forgiveness). True prayer needs that correction of your head as Lord has nothing regarding forms.
What Prayer is Not:
As you are always determining, everything you require when you wish is what counts. Whenever you plead in prayer to possess Lord correct a questionnaire trouble with yet another variety problem, you’re wondering the ego brain for support (not God). These forms and wants are deemed more important than God’s Enjoy that will stay hidden to their education you select the illusion.
All additional points (forms) are needs. Other labels are needs, needs, position, problems, vomiting, human love (special relationships), gifts and targets nowadays, etc. They are that which you choose as substitutes for God’s Love and the ego will distort the purpose of prayer by using them to help expand the illusion. Therefore, prayer can not be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.